a cure for the cabin fever.

yesterday was our first day out of the house since you were born. it's lucky we didn't have to be anywhere at a specific time because we would have most certainly been late.

we ate breakfast and then i fed you. you closed your eyes and i went to get dressed and make up your diaper bag, as i had not planned ahead. after i was all ready and your dad had helped me get the car all loaded up. your diaper was wet so i went to change you and put some clothes on your skin that's been so close to mine. your eyes began to open and you put your fist to your mouth letting me know you were hungry yet again. so i sat down to feed you again while your dad cooled off the car and finished setting up your carseat. when you were done you dad took you and we made our way to the car and laid your sleeping body in your seat.

the car seat. i have never felt so inadequate. at first we couldn't figure out how to make the straps fit over your shoulders so that they'd clip in without squeezing your little body. so we adjusted the part that makes it taller, so the straps would have more slack. this setting made it hard for you to keep your head held back so it fell forward because you're not yet strong enough to hold it up. it just looked so uncomfortable and i'm sorry for that. we eventually figured how to have the height adjusted appropriately to your size and also to give the straps enough slack to not squish you... but it still looked wrong.

we went to get some more covers for your cloth diapers and stopped to get lunch. we sat in the car so you could nurse and hopefully fall asleep before we put you in the impossible contraption that's designed to keep you safe. as i hopefully laid you down in the seat you shut your eyes and we pulled out of the parking lot. soon after you started crying and i felt helpless. we pulled over so i could pull you out and nurse you again. you fell asleep quickly and we were on our way. we went to get a couple of things from babies-r-us, and to exchange a phone case from best buy. we put you in the peg-preggo stroller i scored from a resale store and you slept the whole time; even the transfer from the stroller to the carseat went well.

i am in love with the lessons you've taught us. it's been such a joy being your mom so far. i can't wait for a lifetime of lessons with you.